I miss him!!! so much... I wish I could have him right next to me all the time...
Everyone around me that have someone special, that someone special loves them back. And that is the greatest feeling of all to know that the person you love, loves you back. They are just so lucky. But me, I love him. so much. yet, he doesn't.
Honestly, i agree love is blind. I don't even know how could I ever fall in love with him. He is different. totally different. He even have a different religion, different belief. Only God knows how it happened.
Well, we started of as friends. and we are still friends till now. never did move on because probably it was only me in love. not him. We use to chat on Facebook a lot. literally every night and sometimes some other times too. even holidays. even when he went overseas, and his internet sucks, we would still chat somehow.
But now, we both are going to take an important exam this year. around 80 days from now. and so now he deactivated everything. twitter, whatsapp and even facebook. He even downgraded his phone temporarily until the exams are over. When he decided to do so, he told me the first. I appreciate that he told me about his decision. But deep inside, my heart sank. totally.
And now I feel so empty and lonely without him. I miss the conversations. I miss the time when he supported me during my tough times. I miss all those little things he does. all those lame jokes he cracked. I miss everything about him.
But somehow there is like a battle between my heart and my brain. My brain says that he is different. he doesn't love me. He would never wanna accept me. Why would he anyway? But my heart keep hoping. Hoping for him to love back as much as I do. I tried to stop loving him but I literally failed.
Whenever I look at him, I keep falling for him. Anyone out there can help me? maybe suggest what I should do? Should I keep on hoping or just try to get over him? I will really appreciate your help. :) #HopefulMonday
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